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Minimalism, FIRE and tiny apartments!

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I have been bite by the FIRE bug few months ago. What is FIRE you ask? Its Financial Independence Retire Early movement – wherein folks in early 20s and 30s work their ass off, save more than 50% of their post-tax income -all with the aim to retire in 10 to 15 years. In order to decide your FIRE number i.e. the saving cushion that is required to retire, you may follow these simple steps. Take your expected annual expenses at retirment. Then multiply the same by 25. Voila! That’s your retirement FIRE number! Now you go really crazy on your savings and live below your means to attain that FIRE number. Invest your savings in index funds or actively managed funds which will give you returns above annual inflation rates. If you are interested to know how much would you need to save in order to retire in x no of years, check out this beautiful post of Mr. Money Mustache. It has been 6 months post my MBA since I have started earning again. I have started taking bab...
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Letter to my Lover

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Dear Lover, Before I begin to say anything I just want to say one thing, “My love for you is pure without maleficence of any motives or obligations. I love you!”  And I say this because I know with confidence, when the time comes- we shall say Goodbye without looking back when either of us harbor any doubts about our love towards each other. We are together now. And while you stay with me, my request is ...give yourself. Give me everything your soul has, your body has, your mind contains. Take everything from me. Touch me. Feel the pulsating veins running just underneath my skin. Hear me speak, hear me bare my naked thoughts at 2 AM in the morning. Let me bury my head in your warm hug. Let me give  you all my doubts, fears, anxieties I have been carrying for years- just for a night. Because till the time we are lovers, let’s not keep anything off-limits. Let the clothes, misunderstandings, repressed emotions not come between us. I need you. Yes, I need you to come ...
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Tabula Rasa

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Loneliness is not a foreign feeling. It resides in all souls – at all times- waiting to resurface. Being alone, on the other hand, can feel so good – until the time it transcends to undesirable loneliness. I have been alone for some time now. Days go by without me even realizing its constant presence. And there are days when I panic with the thought of it. I realize it strongly, during my happiest times. When my heart is overflowing with exuberance, but there is no one I could clink my glass and celebrate. Of course, I still have my parents. But they have reached a stage in their lives where they are more of a spectator to all my major successes or failures, believing that now my life has rolled out on a different plane than theirs and has a pace that does not affect their lives. My friends too have their lives moving at a break neck speed to be present at each of the occasion of my joys and sorrows. In just a year – I realize how much I have been taking for granted – the...
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Acceptance

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It was the Thanksgiving morning.  My mother pulled out the roasted Turkey from the oven.  She looked ravishing as usual.   She drank wine as she chopped the veggies here and added some garnishing there. I stood watching her for a while. I heard someone playing the Piano in the living room. It was my brother Jiggu. He played like a pro now. I went near him and observed his serene face. He always let himself flow with the rhythm of the music he produced. It felt like his fingers were his fins and the music was the water.  On completing the coda, everybody applauded. Today my house was buzzing with relatives.  It was customary tradition to have Thanksgiving meal together. My Uncles, my aunts and my cousins gathered around the table as the help started bringing in dishes. They all settled and prayed. I watched my mother. A Tear rolled down her cheeks. My heart broke. But I was happy. I ran out of the house. I ran into the deep forest with ecstasy. I...
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Eternity

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“Mirror Mirror on the wall, am I not the fairest of them all?” She gave a dazzling smile and raised an eyebrow while still admiring the perfect curves of her body. “Oh, you naughty Mirror!” she sighed and broke the mirror with her fist. She  laughed hysterically. Her laughter reverberated through the halls of that huge palace, long abandoned by the humans. She floated through the palace, humming, from one room to another. Her long gown flowed with her. She stopped by the window. Her tombstone located across the river, was shinning magnificently amidst the mild moonlight.  It was her 105 th death anniversary.  Someone was pulling her gown. She looked down to find her notorious Cat. “Aw! My sweetheart! You came to meet me on our anniversary? Come!  Let’s get out of this place.” She took her feline companion in her arms and flew away from the window towards the dark forest.  On the highway she found a few people camping. They had bikes parked nearby....
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Let Go

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Puzzles have always enthralled me. Solving them gave me an acute sense of empowerment and confidence.  The harder they got, the higher my resolve spiraled to decode them. And here it was, the Rubic cube. It was a child’s play for me. But for Tina it was always a huge task! Oh, how she pouted at this small piece of puzzle! “This is a sweet little color toy with evil mind! And you Ma’am are a Genius! How easily you conquer these nefarious squares!”, she would say! I always felt good about myself when she said this. “Goood morning!”.  It was Tina. She ringed her cycle bells, as she called my name. Every Sunday morning we went cycling and then for a swim.  I placed the cube aside, picked up my sports bag and paddled my bicycle out of the garage. Tina was circling outside my house. She looked like an angel. Laughing and carefree. She looked at me with the most enigmatic smile I had ever seen and then sped her bicycle- indicating that the race had began. We both raced a...
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Random...

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My mind is taking a turn…for better or for worse?   That answer the future is given.    My life is as grammatically structure-less as the sentence before this one. In chaos and uncertainty, I struggle to keep my proverbial “shit” together.    Right now, I am struggling for the future that I want to have, and yet in this realm of what I call a “lifeless life” that I live right now…I cannot see my north star that I am suppose to reach.    Well “suppose” is an arguably arguable word in my case.    I am old enough to “go” get a life I want and yet there is this other part of me which I believe is my rational self who, time and again says that , “Do this or you will regret it forever”.    I really have to meet this other self who always have a says in every says that I want to say about life. Huh…I thought I would be a star and in a prime of my life when I begin my 20’s.    Look at me now! Already 2 years past my ...
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