Me, God and DEATH!!!
So today we are going to talk about death! Its really not making me feel horrible. More of a mixed feelings i guess. I mean...who love to leave everything and everyone they have ever known and leave without knowing what's next.It should have been an exciting experience like in any other situation where we can't just predict what lies ahead.But death brings anxiety, intense fear...not curiosity or anticipation!
Some people claiming to have divine connection talk about souls and karma and punya and paap. But they aren't able to completely eradicate the fear associated to such a natural event of life. We rejoice birth...then why such discrimination towards death? And we belive that the power, the force, who created us is fair, good and want us to experience life...if cuts a return ticket of us, then there must certainly be something more exciting in store for us! Some wise old men say, hell and heaven are on earth. I belive them. Or else why do you think the power who is just and fair would have descriminated among his own creation?
Some say its the unknown experience that lies ahead when we have to leave our body, is what frightening us. I have heard a few people who have had a near death experience say that we pass through a big dark tunnel when we are reaching the almighty. God, that sounds creepy. I don't have attraction to anything dark and enclosed! But I think when I leave my body, that is the least that should bother me.
I don't know how many births i have taken before i came on this planet as Shivangi. But i am sure i had birth at least once before and my soul must have at least some experience!
I strongly believe in soul. Its a matter of faith.So many people believe in diffrent forces... our ancient books mention about soul. Geeta, Bible and Quran...the holy books teach us about the hardship the soul faces due to our karma. We aren't machines, who stop working once its torn and done! Oh, machines could come to life once they are fueled and polished!
Some part of me still doubt the whole divine thing... guardian angel thing. But its the much better theory i would say. I always believed in rebirth. Of course it would piss me off if all the "to-do" dream list of mine remains in my imagination! But whatever force created me, I belive in it. I know that, that almighty who i keep talking to in my hours of need, wants best for me. I belive that he is trying to drag me toward himself, by making me push myself to the stage of self actualization, so that i gain all the knowlege about this force, tthis almighty so that i would ultimately become once with my almighty.
And if this is the reason for all the life and death chakra...seriously who would mind to go through it even though its painful?
Parents use punishment with kids so that they could unfold as a true human being....than why do we complicate such a simply principle when it comes to relationship between almighty and us?
When I was a kid my mom used to take us to Nehru planatorium museum every vacations. Dinosaurs kind of always facinated me there! But at that age I remember i often used to wonder; if dinosaurs were to extinct why were they born in the first place? And I asked my mom the same doubt. She replied differently to this one. Not like a child-responses... which made me really think. She asked me "Why do we exist? We too aren't here forever."
It still kind of puzzled me and i eventually gave up thinking it as question beyond my age. Well and then I grew up and i knew it was part of evolution. But it was more of a easy answer which i gave to question which is obviously more than that (this is why growing sucks). And that why i still keep asking myself, WHat is the purpose of my existance? Purpose which will take me closer to him.
Well I hope to find answer to this soon, in my this birth(hopefully!)
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