That most beautiful moment....
Today is the last day of the year 2013 and it began as any other day. I didn't have any extraordinary plans nor any special reasons to look forward to 2014. I just had one evening party to attend with my parents after which I was going to hang out with my friends. I expected a laid back day and it was until that thing happened. I am so overwhelmed by this "thing" that I have to literally make myself slow down while writing this post today.
I was getting ready for the evening when the host of the party called to inform that the party is being cancelled for some reason. I was a little annoyed because I was almost ready except the makeup. So helpless I sat on the couch and messaged my friends about the sudden change of events. I played with my phone for a while and suddenly decided to click a picture of myself. When I checked the pictures I had taken, I was awestruck! Yes, awestruck with myself. It is really rare that I like my own pictures if at all. Neither am i to indulge in self love. And this was something completely different. Unexplanable even. It was like the love at first sight. I was so much in love with that picture that I rushed towards the mirror to confirm it. And there again! Those eyes, those scattered yet shinny deep dark black mane. I felt stupid checking myself out this way! But I could not help it! Consumed by this newly discovered feeling for myself, I sat on the bed still looking at myself in the mirror. A sudden flush of thoughts started thier own dance in my head. How come I don't look at myself and my life the way I am right now? I shower love to others rather readily and unconditionally, but always retrain a bit while prasing or indulging in self love. Why was I so unfair towards myself? Why should I? I loathed the idea of putting my desires, my dreams before others. But right then as i still looked at those profound, mystifying eyes that stared right back me, and knew how unfair I was to myself. Who am I to treat myself, this beautiful soul that resides in my beautiful body all the love that I had?
They say it takes years to realize a great revelation or just a moment is enough.I can't say I learned a lot from 2013. But this "thing" that happened just few hours before the end of this year is something I will always keep inside my heart.
It felt similar to when I was in love. I adored him, I wanted him each minute of my waking hours. Tomorrow when I wake up, I hope this feeling remains. Oh I know it is going to be not just a beginning of a great year, but a life!
Happy New Year!
I was getting ready for the evening when the host of the party called to inform that the party is being cancelled for some reason. I was a little annoyed because I was almost ready except the makeup. So helpless I sat on the couch and messaged my friends about the sudden change of events. I played with my phone for a while and suddenly decided to click a picture of myself. When I checked the pictures I had taken, I was awestruck! Yes, awestruck with myself. It is really rare that I like my own pictures if at all. Neither am i to indulge in self love. And this was something completely different. Unexplanable even. It was like the love at first sight. I was so much in love with that picture that I rushed towards the mirror to confirm it. And there again! Those eyes, those scattered yet shinny deep dark black mane. I felt stupid checking myself out this way! But I could not help it! Consumed by this newly discovered feeling for myself, I sat on the bed still looking at myself in the mirror. A sudden flush of thoughts started thier own dance in my head. How come I don't look at myself and my life the way I am right now? I shower love to others rather readily and unconditionally, but always retrain a bit while prasing or indulging in self love. Why was I so unfair towards myself? Why should I? I loathed the idea of putting my desires, my dreams before others. But right then as i still looked at those profound, mystifying eyes that stared right back me, and knew how unfair I was to myself. Who am I to treat myself, this beautiful soul that resides in my beautiful body all the love that I had?
They say it takes years to realize a great revelation or just a moment is enough.I can't say I learned a lot from 2013. But this "thing" that happened just few hours before the end of this year is something I will always keep inside my heart.
It felt similar to when I was in love. I adored him, I wanted him each minute of my waking hours. Tomorrow when I wake up, I hope this feeling remains. Oh I know it is going to be not just a beginning of a great year, but a life!
Happy New Year!
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