Death of a soul...

My first attempt..Rap song!!!
 Today when I opened my eyes, this world was so diffrent..it wasn't mine...
I got a sick feeling, the one i never felt... and that pit in my stomach drained me physically..spiritually...oh damn!
what was happening?
where was I?
what am i doing in this unknown surrounding?
Why am i feeling so souless?
Oh i just don't know!...
but i was breathing and was alive this much i know!
People...oh sweet bloody people made my life so hell!
 I tried my ass off to run from them....but round and round i stoped where i started...
 Stabbed, suppressed, agitated...
Oh! please leave me alone..
Can't you see I am exhausted...how long will you keep me your hostage?
Can't you see my mind has frosted?
 I can't even feel the pain, the wounds are numb...i have finally lost it!
I want to express, shout till my throat burst, show my true self...i swear my erratic behaviour has no other motive!
But you won't leave me...
and worst let me be me..
.i know "cos that will make me stand out..keep me away from becoming a mechanical robot...
but now...i am gonna hurt myself no more..
Don't worry you motherfuckers....i will play no hindrance in your civilized society..
I will kill this force within me which is making my life hell...
what did it give me? Nothing but pain...
Tomorrow I will wear ironed suit with a polished boot... and greet people with a plastic smile saying, "How can I help you?"
This is life...
this is bitter truth...
you take it or leave...its simple as a moot
don't feel sad....hearing my story...
'cos my pen has no ink
and finally my heart has digested the sting... :(

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  1. UnknownMay 19, 2016 at 12:41 AM

    Aahhh.... the raw pain and emotions, you can feel it all. N when a reader can feel the emotions behind the words, it has to be something good that he's reading.

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