Letter to my Lover

Dear Lover,

Before I begin to say anything I just want to say one thing, “My love for you is pure without maleficence of any motives or obligations. I love you!” 
And I say this because I know with confidence, when the time comes- we shall say Goodbye without looking back when either of us harbor any doubts about our love towards each other.
We are together now. And while you stay with me, my request is ...give yourself. Give me everything your soul has, your body has, your mind contains. Take everything from me. Touch me. Feel the pulsating veins running just underneath my skin. Hear me speak, hear me bare my naked thoughts at 2 AM in the morning. Let me bury my head in your warm hug. Let me give  you all my doubts, fears, anxieties I have been carrying for years- just for a night. Because till the time we are lovers, let’s not keep anything off-limits. Let the clothes, misunderstandings, repressed emotions not come between us.
I need you. Yes, I need you to come back home to, after I have battled out many a battles all day. I need to feel like a little girl happy to see you when I come home at 7 in the night. I would come rushing to you. Happy like a little puppy, happy that we met in this life and happy like a fool that we are together at that exact moment. Don’t push me then. Don’t restrain. Don’t say that I am not in the mood. Just hold me for a couple of seconds. Because till we are lovers, you are my home,my anchor,my happiness and I know I can conquer the world when I know I have you to come back home to.
I might get erratic, irrational an demand your attention more on some days than on others. So bear with me. I shall not always be this needy and attention seeking. Okay, maybe I often am! But please understand, only your attention matters right now. Even if I look ravishing with that red lipstick and those golden heels on a Saturday night, a thousand starring eyes would mean nothing to me if you don’t say, “Oh my darling, you look wonderful tonight!” Because till the time we are deeply in love with each other, I would put on lipstick only if you would wipe it off with your lips in the night!
And right now life is wonderful with you. When you are by my side- I don’t want anything else. I want nothing else but to grow old with you. But I know this can change. Maybe we would want to take a bus to a place which is far-far away from where we live. Or we would want to hug someone else in our most vulnerable nights. Or maybe one of us wants kids/pugs/kittens and the other doesn’t. Maybe one day being together simply becomes painful than being apart. Let’s not stop each other. Or try to hold onto “us”. Let us carry nothing but happy memories with us.
But till the time we are still lovers, let us truly become one soul while still retaining our vibrant unique self. Let us amaze each other, every day. Let us push each other to succeed and win the world. Let us love each other more than we loved the day before.





Comments

  1. AnonymousAugust 11, 2019 at 12:33 PM

    I don't know how I ended up here, but glad I stumbled upon.
    This seems a pretty intense writing. Are you the one who would write blogs than actually let your feelings be told? I read some other blogs and I think that's what introverts would do! Correct me if I'm wrong.

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  2. AnonymousDecember 27, 2019 at 3:35 AM

    She might seem introvert while going through each words spilled over here but, she is not introvert for sure. These are sets of mystic emotions folded beneath the words but no she's not introvert. That's what I feel.. No doubt her creative writing puzzled us.


    I'll pay unplanned visits....
    Keep writing....

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